Trauma & PTSD Recovery Stories
Our understanding of trauma and post-traumatic stress disorder is evolving and changing; daily, it seems. One of the most important things we do here at Recovery Diaries is challenge archaic beliefs about mental health, diagnoses, and stigma. It was once very commonly believed that the only people who lived with PTSD (before there was even a name for it) were combat veterans returning from war. However, we now know so, so much more, and our understanding of trauma and how it impacts, changes, and reorganizes the brain is nuanced and expansive. For instance, we now know that non-combat/deployed veterans have higher rates of PTSD diagnoses than combat veterans. We also know that anybody can be diagnosed with PTSD (a mental health condition whereby a human being impacted by a traumatic event and experiences symptoms such as nightmares, flashbacks and severe anxiety), or its “cousin”, CPTSD (similar symptoms to PTSD, but the result of chronic, prolonged exposure to traumatic events or situations).
In our essays, documentary films, and podcast episodes featuring individuals who live with PTSD or CPTSD, we introduce you to a police officer who copes with his past trauma through the tango, psychiatric inpatient hospital workers who live, breathe, and experience trauma day in and day out exploring creativity and healing through theatre, gunshot survivors uniting together to unpack their trauma, a mental health advocate who survived abuse and cancer; and many, many more indomitable human beings.
Acting like the quicksand we all feared from 80’s movies growing up, PTSD threatens to grab hold of our legs and suck us deep, down into a hole that transports us right back to the time of our trauma, convincing us that we are not safe, that we are back in a dangerous, vulnerable time and that we are going to be hurt no matter what we say or do; but it’s essays, films, and podcast episodes like the ones we have here for you that remind us that we are safe, we are whole, we are healing.
Childhood Trauma and Abandonment: My Long BPD Path to Recovery
From abandonment and shame to diagnosis and healing, Lisa’s story reveals the lifelong impact of trauma—and the courage to stop abandoning herself.
From Fearing Food to Embracing it — Eating Disorder and OCD Recovery in the Kitchen
A cookbook author with an eating disorder and OCD finds recovery in connecting with people through baking.
Dubious of Disclosure: Delving into my Depression
Disclosing depression may seem easy. After all, scarcely a day goes by when this celebrity or that one “comes out” as living with depression, or anxiety (two of the socially “acceptable” mental health diagnoses) but, for many people, talking openly about their mental health challenges, whatever those are, isn’t easy; it can be excruciating, and the very thought of being out in the open as someone living with mental illness can be incredibly, well, anxiety-provoking. Miriam Beigelman doesn’t take coming forward lightly, and she talks about this in her brave essay.
A Fashion Designer with CPTSD Wears Her Recovery Well; Lilah Velez | RDID; 217
Fashion designer Lilah Velez lives with CPTSD and she speaks about her recovery.
Chaos Comes to Light — A Therapist’s Life With AuDHD and Eating Disorder Recovery
A therapist with an eating disorder finally finds recovery after realising she has ADHD and autism.
A Screenwriter with Bipolar Disorder Rewrites His Recovery; Coli Sylla | RDID; 216
Screenwriter Coli Sylla lives a creative, productive, and full life with bipolar disorder.
Healing Without Forgiveness: My Journey Through Trauma Recovery
After years of childhood neglect from her parents, Amanda Gregory has been asking herself if she needs to forgive in order to move on. Now a licensed trauma psychotherapist, she’s exploring how forgiveness can harm victims, and she’s choosing her own path to recovery.
My Parents Were in Denial Until It Was Too Late: The Danger of Ignoring Early Warning Signs of Depression
Hope Mwaura tried and tried to express to her parents that something was wrong: she was losing weight, performing worse in school, forgetting about hygiene. But her parents told her to pray more, to stop overthinking, to make the decision to be happy, until it was too late.
Tackling PTSD on the High Seas | Navy Veterans’ Mental Health
Update on U.S Navy Taylor Greiger’s transformation from suicide attempt survivor into suicide prevention awareness activist.
Enough Was Enough – Overcoming a Traumatic Workplace
An obstetric nurse recovers from PTSD after retiring from the relentless medical system.
I Travelled The World During a Manic Episode, But Could I Make It Home?
Erroneously believing her father’s death was imminent, Heather Bradford made the long trek from Canada to Australia, only to find her father was fine, and that she was experiencing a manic episode. Throughout her traumatic journey, she is protected by the kindness of strangers and family alike.
An Ex-Inmate with Mental Illness Shares the Keys to Mind Freedom
Steve Rothwell, bipolar disorder, mental illness, ocd, obsessive compulsive disorder, trauma, imprisonment, prisoner, freedom, prison, incarceration, recovery, personal essay
Overcoming the Trauma of Erasure
For Shumaila Hemani, an immigrant seeking permanent status in Canada, enduring the trauma of erasure is a constant struggle.
My Mental Struggle: Battling That Bitch Bulimia and Her Bitch Sister, Anorexia
Cheri Shandra, a trauma-informed coach, is living in recovery with bulimia and anorexia.
The Healing Power of Self-Witness after Trauma
Melissa Dagenhart lived through an act of violence; her essay is about recovery after trauma.
Living & Thriving with Illogical and Irrational Anxiety: Nicci Attfield | RDID; 204
A podcast interview featuring writer Nicci Attfield, who lives with anxiety and ADD.
A Black Mental Health Advocate & Survivor Speaks: Jasmin Pierre | RDID; 203
A Recovery Diaries in Depth podcast interview featuring Jasmin Pierre, an advocate focusing on Black mental health issues.
The Little Girl Inside of Me: The Importance of Reparenting Your Inner Child
This mental health recovery story focuses on Morrene, whose healing journey led her to understand the inner child that still lives in her and reparent herself.
Police Officer Trauma & PTSD: Officer James Jefferson | RDID; 202
Police PTSD, trauma, and suicide are discussed with Officer James Jefferson.
From Squalor and Fear to Thriving and Helping; an Interview with Psychotherapist Sheri Heller | RDID; 201
Interview with psychotherapist Sheri Heller about her life and relationship with her mother who had chronic paranoid schizophrenia.
Mental Health On The High Seas: A Conversation with Writer/Filmmaker Stephen O’Shea | RDID; 124
Stephen O’Shea talks about his film “Hell or High Seas” about veteran mental health and suicide.
A Vibrant Voice with DID Explores Trauma through Writing | RDID; 123
Elizabeth Devine lives and writes and hopes with dissociative identity disorder.
Changing Your Own Story with Borderline Personality Disorder: For my friends with a highly stigmatized diagnosis
A young woman with borderline personality disorder writes her own narrative, her own way.
Burnout, Bravery, Breakthrough: A Conversation with Artist-Scholar Shumaila Hemani | RDID; 122
Shumaila Hemani writes and talks about academic burnout at Harvard.
Thyroid Cancer and Mental Health; a Med Student Survives
Cancer and mental illness collide in this essay from a medical student in Pakistan.
The Ambition of Recovery: Surviving Gun Violence, a Story of PTSD
This mental health recovery story focuses on Silas, who has survived gun violence. Through the pain of violence, Silas has found healing and continued growth. Read here to learn more!
Hunger Crawls Through Me: A Moment of Living with Familial Rejection and D.I.D.
Is it poetry? Is it prose? To try and categorize Elizabeth Devine’s story of dissociative identity disorder and how it impacts her relationship with her family might be futile. To write about something so disorienting might necessitate forms beyond the typical narrative essay.
True til Death, or How Punk Rock Saved Me From Depression and PTSD
Surrounded by drug and alcohol abuse all of his childhood, Dennis Bagwell made the choice to commit to something larger than himself. In his words, it was “a rebellion within a rebellion.” He wasn’t just punk, he was Straight Edge.
Ronald Crawford “The Hip Hop Therapist” Take 2
Film depicts the story of Ronald Crawford, a therapist who uses hip hop lyrics to connect with youth.
The Black Kaleidoscope: How Educating Yourself on the Mechanisms of Depression Can Free You From It
It was depression that kept Michael Sylvester out of school for so long, only for him to find later in life that an education might help free him from his illness.
When Faith Hurts: Testimony of an EXvangelical on Religious Trauma
Cassandra Brandt documents her recovery from the religious trauma of her fundamentalist Christian upbringing.
Go to Your Room if You’re Gonna Cry – Breaking Generational Trauma
Laura Baumeister is breaking generational trauma and doing her best to raise the next healthier generation.
Kindness is a Powerful Choice; with Dr. Erica Harris | RDID; Ep 113
The trauma of COVID has not lessened Dr. Erica Harris’s commitment to providing care with kindness.
Young Filmmakers Take on Mental Health, Beautifully.
Interview with teenage filmmakers Patrick Jang and Nina Zandvliet about their journeys making films about teen mental health.
Surviving Childhood Abuse & Trauma with Morrene Hauser | RDID; Ep 112
Morrene Hauser is a survivor of childhood sexual abuse and trauma, using horses and creative writing to help her heal.
My Experience with Mental Health in the Jewish Community
After the death of her sister, Linda Baron Katz was left to grieve not only her family, but the entire mental health system, which she believed in, and that ultimately failed her schizophrenic sister.
Reclaiming My Story: From Foster Child to Freedom
It took fifty years for Jamie Swann to realize that she had been a foster child. Her essay describes the impact of that discovery on her mental health.
Learning Boundaries: A Story of Childhood Trauma and Abuse
This mental health recovery story focuses on Jasmin’s childhood trauma and abuse. She eventually shared her story and began to heal.
Bringing Both Feet in for Love with Kavita Sarmah | RDID Ep. 103
Indian mental health advocate Kavita Sarmah talks about love and trauma and letting go to create a beautiful life.
Invisible Wounds: A Veteran’s Mental Health Journey
Former English soldier Dominic Barrett writes about depression, anxiety, and PTSD as a result of a high stress encounter while on duty, and also an unhealthy relationship.
When Your Trauma is a Landmark
Short film that explores the role that landmarks can play in dealing with trauma, and how they can help us try to live with triggers and trauma.
My Very Own Sunshine: Healing from Trauma with Horses
This mental health recovery story focuses on Morrene, who learned to heal her childhood trauma by riding horses. Through horseback riding, Morrene learned to manage her PTSD and heal.
Music is Sanctuary: Navigating Burnout in the Ivy League with the Power of Deep Listening
Shumaila Hemani once found joy and motivation through her musical studies, but when she began pursuing her Ph.D., all she found was mental burnout. Now she’s on a journey to reclaim her faith and love of music once again.
Waking Up Bipolar: Finding the Right Diagnosis to Begin Healing
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Loving, Losing, and Remembering a Sister: An Interview with Author Kyleigh Leddy
Interview with Kyleigh Leddy, author of the film essay “When Your Trauma is a Landmark,” which deals with the legacy of her sister who died by suicide.
How Changing the Ending to My Mom’s Death Helped Me With the Trauma of It
Loving means losing, and writer Lauren Barrett writes about coping with grief after the death of her mother.
Ketamine Addiction & My Journey Out of the Hole of Depression
Daniel Gaughan tried to climb out of the hole of depression via an addiction to ketamine, and he almost lost himself.
Yikes! Company—And My OCD—Are Coming!
This mental health recovery story focuses on Theresa who has managed OCD symptoms since childhood. Read more to learn about her journey with mental health and healing, through OCD and healing.
The Price of Freedom: Living With Borderline Personality Disorder
This mental health recovery story focuses on Jaclyn who remained misdiagnosed and misunderstood for years. Read more to learn about her journey with mental health and healing, through trauma, addiction and BPD.
I Wouldn’t be Where I am Today (or Alive) if it Wasn’t for this one Thing I Did
Highly sensitive person Tree Franklyn writes about being born into the trauma of war and living with depression and deep sadness.
The Moment Everything Clicked: A Story of Unhealed Childhood Trauma
Makayla Hutchison experienced childhood trauma and abuse that has had long-term effects on her mental health.
On The Ethics of Mental Health Clinicians With Their Own Diagnoses
Does battling with your own mental health diagnosis make you more or less qualified as a clinician? In this essay, Naomi Kunstler explores that question, and shares the price she paid to offer exemplary clinical service while also battling with depression and a history of self-harm.
Trauma and how the Depressed Brain Pushes us into Social Isolation
The post-college search for interpersonal connection left Eleni Stephanides wondering: “Maybe you’re not someone who was meant for relationships.” This, of course, was a falsehood put forth by her trauma and depression.
My Grande Mis-Comparison Between Mental Episodes and Abuse
Ashley Marie Berry endured trauma in an abusive relationship, on top of pre-existing mental health challenges and emerged hopeful.
A Creative Mind, Body, and Voice Navigates Bipolar Disorder
Musician, dancer, and artist Casey Calhoun has long struggled with bipolar disorder, and she writes here about her unique recovery process.
Breaking Like Glass: A Story of Complex Trauma and Healing
This mental health recovery story focuses on Kiersten, who lives with C-PTSD. Her journey has been one around managing her patterns of activation and learning mechanisms to help her cope with hypervigilance and trauma response. Read more to learn about her journey with mental health and healing.
In Honor and Memory of Steven B. Smith
Memorial tribute to Steven B Smith, an anti-gun violence advocate and member of a support group for gunshot violence survivors.
How I Use The Joy of Soccer To Fight Depression
As a symptom of his depression, Isaac Nunoofio found it difficult to connect with peers for much of his life. It was Ghana’s World Cup run in 2010 that helped him find the joy and interconnection that a soccer fandom has to offer.
Overcoming Mental Illness Meant Accepting I’m an Introvert
Amanda Nicholson grew up struggling to understand why it was so hard for her to socialize with her peers. In adulthood, she’s learned a new way to think about her introversion: social energy is a finite resource, not a wellspring.
Unpacking Emotional Baggage and Helpful Coping Mechanisms
DEI professional Shaquiea Sykes gets tired carrying around all the emotional baggage of depression; in her essay, she talks about setting it down.
Don’t Project Your Grief. Live it Intensely. How DBT’s Radical Acceptance Helps Me Through My Grief
To move forward in life after the loss of her mother, Daniela Silva had to radically accept the world as it was—a lesson she learned in dialectical behavioral therapy.
Tommy Horsey: Modeling Vulnerability
Tommy Horsey started the Instagram account @vulnerbul_ to encourage Black males to talk about their mental health.
Integration; My Final Stage of Healing from Dissociative Identity Disorder
Shirley Davis is never alone; there are alters living within her, other beings and voices, the result of her dissociative identity disorder.
Highs and Lows; Navigating Life with CPTSD
This is the story of Martha Githui, who was diagnosed in 2020 with complex PTSD (CPTSD), which is often the result of repeated, prolonged exposure to traumatic incidents/situations.
Revisited: An Orphan’s Memorial to Her Dying Mother
Touching animated interview with psychotherapist Sheri Heller about her journey with her mother, Pearl, who lived with schizophrenia.
How Throwing Out the Script to My Sleep Routine Helped Cure My Insomnia
This mental health recovery story focuses on Lauren, who was overwhelmed by life and all its challenges fell into patterns of insomnia and anxiety. Read more to learn about her journey.
Bringing Both Feet in – Love & Mental Health
Kavita Sarmah lives with PTSD and believes that therapy and self-work was the key to help her be open to the prospect of love, marriage, and recovery.
James Church: Immortal Dark Manga and Mental Health
A film about IMMORTAL DARK, a Black supernatural martial arts manga that blends two of James Church’s lifetime passions—Japanese manga and mental health.
Finding Self-Love When Surrounded By Abusive Voices
After a childhood in Nigeria where no one would take Precious Minaseidiema’s cries seriously, Precious took stock of all her sources of unhappiness, and did away with the ones she could.
Revisited: A Police Officer’s Tango with PTSD and Complex Trauma
Argentine tango helped police officer Ed Pila recover from secondary trauma and PTSD.
Corporal Punishment as a Barrier to Intimacy, Letting go of Shame
Corporal punishment is falling out of fashion, thankfully, for Jacques Damhuis writes beautifully about its long-lasting, damaging impact.
Trauma Under the Bridge | Trauma Recovery Short Film Revisited
Short film that shows the Sharon Wise’s journey from trauma, abuse and addiction to hope, healing and connection.
The Plight of the One-Person Mental Health Support System
As the daughter of a victim of sexual abuse, Elizabeth Devine has had to endure her own trauma as well as take on the traumatic experiences of others; today she writes about her own challenges.
Victory Over Suicidal Tendencies: Fostering the Human Connection
This mental health recovery story focuses on Amy’s journey with intergenerational trauma, suicidality and addiction. Amy eventually found support that helped her to heal, read more here!
Following Childhood & Adult Suicide Attempts: A Vow to Get Better
Like so many people who try to take their own lives, Sandra Stevens came from trauma; wishing she had never been born. She took many steps to achieve the desire to stay in this world; this is her story.
“What’s Wrong with You?” — the Question Trauma Asks
For his whole life, Jacques Damhuis was confronted with, “What’s wrong with you?” After decades of self-discovery, and some EMDR, he is learning that the answer is “nothing.”
Was I the Black Sheep? Discovering, Understanding and Healing my Trauma and CPTSD
This mental health recovery story focuses on Ana’s journey with Complex PTSD, and intergenerational trauma. Ana eventually cut ties with family to begin her healing journey. Read to learn more about how Ana learned to ask for help and recover from trauma.
Back on Track: Recovering from Mental Illness and Addiction
After ten years of fighting a wrenching addiction to heroin, Stacey Anne Quin is winning herself back from the brink of mental illness and addiction.
Throw Pillows and Coffee Mugs: Accoutrements of Trauma, Abuse, and Recovery
Alan Caldwell has been collecting stories about his history of abuse and trauma and family for years, but only recently begun writing them down.
Losing Her Saved Me: How I Healed From Trauma
This mental health recovery story focuses on Amanda’s journey with OCD, Anorexia, Complex PTSD, trauma and grooming. Amanda had to cut off her mother in order to heal. Read to learn more about how Amanda learned to ask for help and recover from trauma.
We’ll Leave The Gaslight on For You
This mental health recovery story focuses on Lindsey’s journey through abuse and childhood trauma, gaslighting, and hospitalizations, where Lindsey learned to trust her intuition and find practices around caring for herself. Read more in this mental health essay!
PTSD: The Unlikely Disease that Brought my Father and I Together
Carissa Chesanek’s father experienced undiagnosed PTSD from his experience in Vietnam. His daughter never went to war, but was diagnosed with the same illness.
All The Colors Of Me Only Some Will See: Relearning to Love Your Body After a Trauma
Anne Marie Malloy had trouble loving who she saw in the mirror after facing childhood trauma, so she’s reclaimed control over self-identity with piercings, Doc Martens, and a rebellious attitude to match.
Learning to Prioritize Mental Health and Self-Care through a Traumatic Experience
This mental health recovery story focuses on Andrea’s journey after an incident of unwanted touch in a public place. Andrea felt anger, confused, uncertain how to go on. Through mental health care and re-prioritizing her needs, read how Andrea learned to heal from her trauma.
Walking through Life with Grief
Losing people is always hard; for Amanda Wolf, the grief and loss following the deaths of a close friend and her grandfather threatened to overcome her.
The Hip Hop Therapist
Ronald Crawford calls himself a hip hop therapist, using hip hop lyrics as a way to connect in therapy sessions with young people.
Magical Thinking as Trauma Response: How I Created Safety through Imagination
Faced with traumas before unimagined, Laura turned to the tool of magical thinking to create safety after ongoing experiences of trauma.
Anxiety & Trauma Poems
Faced with trauma and grief, writer Laura Farrell turned to poetry to process her experiences.
Forgiving the Hurt: What Does it Mean to Forgive Our Abusers?
Alicia McClendon has been parsing out the word “forgiveness” for some time now. Can you forgive your own mother for causing you childhood trauma? And what does it mean to forgive while still holding on to your truth?
Melancholy & Cinnamon; A Journey through Mental Hell, and How Poetry Saved my Life
Gabrielle Guillon has come a long way from growing up with depression and abuse as her constant companions; poetry has helped her heal.
A Goodbye Call in a Summer Afternoon: Noticing Suicide Warning Signs May Be the Difference Between Life and Death
When her uncle called trying to give a cryptic goodbye, Thaís Freita noticed suicide warning signs and saved a life.
Hell or High Seas: Suicide Attempt Survivor on the Big Screen
Tackling PTSD on the High Seas presents U.S Navy Taylor Greiger’s transformation from suicide attempt survivor into suicide prevention awareness activist.
Sincerely, Madness: A Marine Confronts Rape and Self-Harm to find Strength and Hope
Being a Marine is supposed to put you through Hell and test your will, but not by subjecting you to rape by two different superior officers. Years later, Joyce Villeta is recovering and living through her trauma.
Good Thoughts for a Better Mind: How Psychoanalysis Transformed My Life
Years of traditional therapy didn’t do much to quell Daniela Silva’s existential dread and fear of smiling. It took a dose Freud to spur her journey forward.
Wired Differently: How Brain Surgery Quelled My OCD
After experiencing mountains of trauma at the hands of her therapist, Harper Hanson found that treating her OCD might actually be better solved in the operating room.
Afraid of Being Seen: Recovering from Trauma & Learning to Show up Authentically
Lisa Greene’s trauma recovery journey is hopeful, inspiring, and beautifully crafted, like the intentional life she leads.
A New Book Returns Us to Our Town
A new book about many different productions of Thornton Wilder’s Our Town features a production by mental health workers.
Gunshot Survivor Mental Health: Jalil Frazier’s Story
Jalil Frazier was shot trying to prevent a robbery. He is a member of a support group for gunshot violence survivors who speaks about his journey.
A Fractured Journey: Feeling the Throes of Bipolar Disorder Before Diagnosis
Jason Schreurs zig-zags through different moments in his life, finding both clarity and confusion throughout. It all coalesces with one surprise diagnosis.
Kiss My Scars: Learning to Love the Whole Self, Trauma Included
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Connected Through Trauma: A Police Officer’s Story of PTSD, Suicidality, and Hope
As a police officer, trauma, PTSD, and thoughts of suicide threatened to end Constable James Jefferson’s career, and his life, but he wouldn’t allow it.
Gunshot Survivor Depression & Trauma Recovery: B’s Story (Steven Smith)
Steven Smith is an anti-gun violence advocate and member of a support group for gunshot violence survivors who speaks about his journey.
He Did the Laundry: A Sister Becomes a Suicide Loss Survivor
Lisa’s journey into the world of sibling suicide loss is painful and, ultimately, hopeful and inspiring.
My Story of PTSD: Fighting the World Against All Odds
Through a difficult childhood, Kate developed PTSD, slowly as Kate began to understand the effects of her father’s absence and mother’s discipline on her mental health she began to heal.
Gun Violence Survivor’s Mental Health Recovery: Jaleel King’s Story
Jaleel King is a photographer and member of a support group for gunshot violence survivors who speaks about his journey.
My Bipolar, BPD, OCD, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobic Life’s Journey; Thus Far
As a child, Brianna attempted to find ways to control the emotions and experiences that she did not feel in control of, how Brianna’s diagnosis and treatment helped her to understand her moods.
Mental Health and Gunshot Violence: Charles Horton’s Story
Charles Horton is a disability rights activist and member of a support group for gunshot violence survivors who speaks about his journey.
Winning My Ongoing Battle with Depression and Alcohol Abuse
During childhood, Joao had trouble finding friends he could trust, how Joao moved through experiences of bullying and self-doubt.
Finding the Way Out of Trauma and Substance Abuse
James Howard’s younger life was dominated by trauma and substance abuse, but today he lives stronger with faith and music as his guides.
Re-parenting My Inner Child: My Journey of Healing from Childhood Neglect
In childhood, Amanda the constant fear of neglect and need, how Amanda moved through her upbringing and re-parented herself.
Are We Destined to Repeat the Family Cycle?
Growing up, Natalie struggled with her father’s alcoholism and manipulation, how Natalie worked through her relationship through therapy and writing.
Colours Went Flat: Losing My Brother to Suicide
Suicide loss is different than any other kind of loss, which Indian writer Raashi Thakran beautifully describes in her essay about her brother.
The Vital Mission of a Therapist Working with Marginalized and Disenfranchised Populations
Angelica Pinna-Perez, an intersectionally-oriented therapist, works with marginalized and disenfranchised folx to access culturally-competent, affordable treatment.
Bulimia: Look into Her Greedy Eyes and Destroy Her!
Sonia’s intrusive thoughts about her body controlled her behavior; how Sonia regained control of her life through identifying her disorder and finding help.
Gaslighting is Not Just a Movie: Recovering from the Effects of PTSD, Depression and Anxiety
After leaving an abusive relationship, Felicia Darlington’s anxiety and hopelessness felt out of control. Her strong essay details how she found support and learned to be comfortable in motherhood.
And Then I Got Cancer: My Recovery from Depression Became a Battle for My Life
AnnMarie Otis is a fighter; doing battle with cancer and depression every day of her life, and every moment of every day. Join her fight and cheer her on.
Paramedic Mental Health: Empathy in the Eye of the Storm
Ian Stoddart, a paramedic for 32 years, advocates practicing empathy for positive mental health.
Manic MFA: How My Degree Almost Cost Me My Sanity
Trying to manage bipolar disorder and a MFA program, she was influenced by mania, anxiety dictated the pace of her life, and her marriage was in danger.
First Responder Mental Health: A Paramedic’s Tale
Ashley Neubauer is a paramedic who loves helping people. The stresses of her job, however, affect her mental health, which she must monitor carefully.
What Comes After a Brother’s Death? PTSD, Depression, Anxiety; and Hope
After her young brother’s death, Lauren Fraser takes us on her journey of recovery from mental health challenges like anxiety, depression, and ptsd in this moving personal essay.
My Fight Against Rape and PTSD in College
I fight for myself and those recovery from rape and PTSD. I still struggle, but I am not a victim. I am a survivor. I am not defined by what happened to me.
First Responder Mental Health: When the Helpers Need Help, Who You Gonna Call?
Michelle Monzo is a hero’s hero. Her work is her passion, and her passion is her work. She is trains police and other criminal justice and public safety personnel in mental health crisis intervention techniques. in addition to her crisis intervention education efforts, she creates safe spaces for first responders to be vulnerable when they are feeling they need mental health support.
Compound Trauma: The 911 on 911 Dispatcher Craig Tinneny
Craig Tinneny is a 911 dispatcher whose lifetime work of fielding calls from people in crisis made him feel hollow, helpless, and hopeless. He sought help from a group of peers and has since become a crusader for better mental health for first responders.
Sailing for Life and Surviving PTSD
Hell or High Seas follows veteran Navy rescue swimmer Taylor Greiger and friend Stephen O’Shea on the sailing adventure of a lifetime to prove that Taylor is stronger than his PTSD diagnosis.
How Can Trauma, Depression, and Panic Help you Hold On and Let Go?
Jenna Kohler’s life has been impacted by her boyfriend’s suicide, the Boston Marathon bombing, and other events that have shaped her exposure to depression and trauma.
How Do You Recover from Mental Illness and Hurricane Harvey?
Hurricane Harvey wreaked havoc on Houston, and on Sue Ann Perna, who writes with bravery about how this hurricane impacted her mental illness and changed her life.
Combating OCD with Narrative Poetry
An OCD story from a young woman who writes about how narrative poetry is helping redirect her obsessive compulsive brain in a beautiful, inspiring way.
A Police Officer’s Tango with PTSD and Complex Trauma – Beneath the Vest with Ed Pila
“Many police departments are good at continually preparing their officers for the daily physical and report battles they face. But, most of these same departments are inadequate in knowledge, and even unaware, of what is going on beneath the vest – in the heart, mind, and soul of the police officer.” – Ed Pila
A Story of Multiple Mental Illness Diagnoses in a Marriage
We have a strong marriage but with our multiple diagnoses there are challenges that most would not understand—like going to the grocery store or out to eat.
A Mom with PTSD: Getting Closer to Realizing My Dreams
I was trying to manage my PTSD (unsuccessfully), which was magnified by my newly received diagnoses of bipolar with treatment resistant depression and borderline traits.
Horror, Oppression, Perfectionism, Epiphanies; My Story of Comorbid Resilience
I am what clinicians may refer to as “comorbid,” meaning I experience simultaneous disorders at once. With my history of diagnoses of major depressive, post-traumatic stress, panic, generalized anxiety, illness anxiety, body dysmorphic, and social anxiety disorders, I have had an overwhelming journey.
Tackling PTSD: Hell or High Seas
Taylor Grieger was diagnosed with complex PTSD several months after his release from the Navy with little-to-no guidance on how to cope with his condition.
Now What?: Suicidality and Planning for an Uncertain Present
When I exhibited symptoms of C-PTSD and OCD, I was afraid and lost. I survived multiple major depressive episodes, all of them including suicidality.
A Clinician’s Journey from Complex Trauma to Thriving: Reflections on Abuse, C-PTSD and Reclamation
Sheri Heller’s new book, A Clinician’s Journey from Complex Trauma to Thriving, is a guide to healing with a keen awareness that no two paths are the same.
Acceptance: How One Friend Helped Me Get Help for Depression and Anxiety on my Own Terms
As I battle with depression, anxiety, and PTSD, it has always been far easier for me to support others with mental health struggles than to admit my own.
Lilah James: Complex PTSD Recovery on the Runway
A complex PTSD diagnosis became inspiration for a fashion designer’s runway line. In Glenn Holsten’s short film, Lilah James shares recovery and creativity.
More Mental Health Accounts to Follow on Instagram
This installment of our mental health resources column highlights Instagram mental health from authors who have appeared on OC87 Recovery Diaries.
The Danger of Getting Stuck in the Identity and Drama of Childhood Trauma
Experiencing childhood trauma, I knew that something was wrong or different about me, but for a long time I dismissed that notion.
Bipolar Disorder and PTSD – How I Accepted My Mental Illness Before it had a Name
Before I had a name for my mental illness — bipolar disorder and ptsd — this is what it felt like: playing diagnosis dress-up, trying on labels, seeing how they fit, and feeling lost — like there was nothing left in my closet to wear.
Hunting for Ninjas: When Trauma and Addiction are Hiding in the Dark
They say when you experience a traumatic experience as a child, you block out the details. My memory jumps.
Addiction and Anxiety – My Poetic Recovery
Trapped between fear and anxiety, I would drink and use drugs to cover up my feelings. After years of living this way with several bad trips, blackouts and hospitalizations, I went into treatment.
Cumulative PTSD for a Police Officer After 9/11
This video features Officer Ron Griffith, formerly of the NYPD. After 9/11, Ron’s personality shifted. He became a controlling, angry person. He says he wasn’t aware of this change until his family left him, and all he was left with cumulative PTSD.
Growing Pains with a PTSD Diagnosis
A memory, a word, a smell, an instance can take one back to the exact moment the trauma first spoke to them.
Beneath the Vest: Police Officer Alcoholism, Mental Health & Recovery
Joe has wrestled with alcoholism and the stresses of life as a police officer, a sometimes combustible combination.
Police Officer PTSD & Mental Health
In this short film, Rob Davis shares his journey as a police officer who lives with trauma and PTSD.
Episode 16 – Comedian and TV Personality Paul Gilmartin on Podcasting, PTSD, and Coping with Trauma
Host of The Mental Illness Happy Hour, Paul Gilmartin has come a long way since doing stand-up comedy and hosting the TV show, Dinner and a Movie.
One Step Away: A Film about PTSD, Homelessness, and Redemption
Tammy is one of about 60 people who sell One Step Away, Philadelphia’s first newspaper produced by those without homes for those with homes.
Episode 14 – “The Hunting Ground”: Recovering from Sexual Assault – an Interview with Documentary Film Subject, Kamilah Willingham
Interview with Kamilah Willingham, a subject of the documentary film, “The Hunting Ground.”
Therapist Winden Rowe Talks About Trauma and Mental Health in the Armed Forces
Winden Rowe’s approach to sustained recovery for clients centers around the biological, psychological, and social implications of traumatic stress.
Episode 12 – From Nigeria to the U.S. — A Journey with Anxiety and Depression
Adesola Ogunleye, a Nigerian American immigrant who lives with depression and anxiety, is interviewed on this episode of OC87 Recovery Diaries on the Radio.
Make Connections on These PTSD Facebook Pages
These PTSD Facebook pages speak to the specific challenges and lived experiences of this diagnosis to #buststigma, foster community, and create change.
Episode 3 – An Interview with Documentary Filmmaker Glenn Holsten
Glenn Holsten discusses the making of his mental health documentary film, Hollywood Beauty Salon.
22 Mental Health Podcasts
In celebration of our new podcast, we’ve rounded up 22 mental health podcasts that are doing their part to #buststigma around mental illness.
Episode 2 – Art and Mental Health: Can They Co-Exist, or Must They Compete?
Bud and Laura interview Philadelphia artists Abby Squire and Rosie Carlson about how art and mental health affect one another.
Listening: My Time in a Psych Ward
Perhaps it is important to talk about how I ended up in a psych ward and how I ended up having an earache. I can explain pieces of the first thing.
Beginning Therapy; Being Vulnerable
People say the first step in therapy is acceptance. I can’t speak for others, but I’ve started taking my steps. It’s okay if you want to take yours.
Disclosure
Disclosure is about feeling safe enough to find a kinder voice for ourselves. Every time I share my experiences in safe spaces I feel truer to myself.
Mental Health at the Mic: A Veteran’s Story
A veteran of the United States Army, Russell lives with PTSD, something that affects his daily life. Watch these videos about veteran’s mental health.
Hospitalized for a “Break From Reality”
Being hospitalized for a “break from reality” is a part of my history, and it does not define me. I can understand this with distance from the experience.
A Certified Peer Specialist Living With PTSD
Brenda Lewis is now a Certified Peer Specialist who helps other people find resources along this journey so they won’t have such a difficult time.
The Letter To Mother: PTSD, Anxiety & Major Depression
I am still in the process of healing from PTSD, anxiety, and major depression with the help of a psychiatrist, a therapist, and the love of my life.
Once Upon A Time: PTSD, Anxiety & Major Depression
Recently, I underwent a slight psychological break. Determined to claw my way out of the darkness, I began to write about my journey and experiences.
Recovering From Trauma With EMDR Therapy
The trauma that has affected me the most happened when I was nineteen years old. After that experience, EMDR therapy taught me to trust myself and my body.
“Crazy Cozmo” Veteran Marine With PTSD & Bipolar Disorder
“Crazy Cozmo” is a Marine Corps. veteran who lives with PTSD and bipolar disorder. He also wrestles with the abuse he experienced as a child.
Climbing Out of the Rabbit Hole with ECT, DBT & Art Therapy
I finally I agreed to ECT (electroconvulsive therapy). I was both intrigued and terrified. After my ECT treatments I started to feel like a human again.
Radical Acceptance & Mental Health Recovery
Radical acceptance helps me with PTSD and bipolar disorder with borderline traits. Radical acceptance dictates that change is just another part of life.
A Mom With PTSD: Journey Down The Rabbit Hole
I look “normal” though I’m a mom with PTSD and bipolar disorder with borderline traits. This is part 1 of 3 of my recovery story from an abusive childhood.
A Spiritual Solution to a Mental Health Crisis
Confronted with debilitating depression, anxiety, and a life filled with chaos, I was led to a spiritual solution to manage my mental health meltdown.
Friendship and Recovery: Laura & Catherine
Over the 15+ years we’ve know each other, friendship and recovery have been intertwined. Being a person, being a friend, is constant work.
Rachel’s Recovery On Film
Rachel has been on her own since high school. She has fought to overcome depression, post-traumatic stress disorder, and anxiety.
PTSD & Healing Hurt People
Healing Hurt People works with young people in Philadelphia who are seen in the emergency room for violent injuries (gunshot, stab, or assault wounds).
Things Blur
“Things Blur” is a story about a break from reality. Due to PTSD (among other things), I had what was later described to me as a manic episode.
Mental Health > Art
Is art more important than mental health? Laura Farrell shares her own mental health art and says that mental wellness is more important than creating art.
Rachel “Hollywood” Carr
“I would not want to change my life, even all the negative and bad stuff, because it actually made me who I am.” —Rachel “Hollywood” Carr


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